An Open Letter to Someone Who Stole my Heart (and then ripped it to pieces)

I keep having flashbacks, memories, of all of the lies you told me.  I know I said that we should give it another try, but now I am second guessing myself.  I was listening to the radio earlier today when the familiar sound of the song Keasbey Nights came on, I really enjoy that song, and listening to Streetlight Manifesto in general (especially when I’m studying).  I forced myself to turn off the radio, and a song I used to enjoy because all I could think about were the lies that you told me, the lies I don’t even know about.  Was anything in our relationship real? 

 

Three months of a relationship.  Down the drain. Almost two years of being friends, and “besties for the resties”. The thing that sucks the most is that this time you didn’t even give me an opportunity to be a good, loving girlfriend.  The entire time you were giving me 50%.  The lengths that you went through to protect yourself from your lie of a life.  It must be so stressful.  

Why live such a stressful life for that long? Why not fall in love, be happy, be loyal, be just, be ethical , be the you that I fell in love with summer 2012, be faithful and be true.  I have faith that you can do it, if not for me but for whoever you may end up with in the future.  

I really would love to know why in the end you chose me and not her.  I’m worth it now, but I wasn’t worth it for the past three months?

People think I’m crazy, being with you right now after all you put me through.  “How will you ever trust him again?” or “Could you really look him in the eye knowing he’s been with another girl?”, two statements that I hear frequently.  I don’t think I’ve ever been this stupid in my whole life.  But I know if I didn’t give it another shot I would have lived with that regret the rest of my life.  I don’t know how things are going to end up, or if you are going to stay loyal to me.  But at least I gave it a shot, and I’m going to put in 100% if you do the same.  

 

 

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